india aftermath…
well, i have officially been home a week. its quite weird, but not as different as i expected it to be. i really miss the shanti dan children and have a hard time even thinking about them. although i dont think ill ever see them again, i feel as if ill go back someday. i really have to focus my energy on school this semester, though. i am graduating in december and feel as if these have been a pretty productive 4 years for me. two of my best friends are moving far away this next week. this semester will be much different without them. when i think about india.. i feel confused. i feel as if i saw so many sad things yet found no solutions. i feel as if the trip was productive in my exposure to the country yet i am left with not knowing the next step to take. i have figured out that i love the country and i definitely want to live there long term however, i am overwhelmed with the work that needs to be done in such a broken place. i dont think there are formulas or 12 step answers, but sometimes i wish there were. instead, you are forced to take it one day at a time.
im learning to trust even deeper right now. im learning to trust God for my future and my vocation. as i begin this next semester, i am going to try to remember all that ive learned this summer. ive learned that it is so easy to change your perspective to your present location. it is a conscious effort to remain sensitive to others and their needs.
